I'm tryin

by Jaired Smokeyday - Aries

I feel inconsistent with me
If there was a button on my life line
I’d prolly hit rewind a hundred times
I mean I honestly try
My perception and what I know now
It’s all intertwined
I feel like I’m stuck in a fight
An Inner Complicated strife
Don’t know what I’m battling
Like I’m seeing but blind
Perused by failure
 A part of me is suppressed
Depressed and unable to express
The nature in which I write
Shutting down bad memories
I’ve put a lot of me on strike
To live to see another  night
I just don’t know how to come out and say
I’m a slip away from wrong
But that direction was my right
I’ve had years to find my own way
Plenty of chances to change
I’ve walked in the rain
Laying down loved ones
Growing from that pain
Living in the shadow at times
Thinking solitude will show me
Theres more from  life to gain
And a higher power be showing me signs
like the futures preordained
I remain patient
Sustained by my daughter
Praying that doesn’t  change
Always be a father
Young like her
 Playing the roll of both ends
 like big brother
but that’s mini me
And not everyday has sunshine
but I’m  honestly trying
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2011-05-09 23:31:21
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:17
Poem ID: 72230

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